over your doubts.
I just realized today how much progress I have been making in my life. I didn’t realize it so much from any particular result that I have to point to. But by the fact that there has been this little creeping voice of doubt wriggling back into my mind. A little voice that instead of finding hope and fun things to see, is looking and pointing to all the things to prove that I am wrong. It’s looking for the potholes.
I am probably doing that so I won’t find myself hanging too far off a cliff. Sending myself all the danger signals: Edge of the world, here! Abandon all hope ye who enter! Turn back! It’s singing the song of: I am so out of my comfort zone.
Ooo! Ooo! Ooo! Mr. Kotter! I know! This is only a hurtle! A transition! It’s the 24 inch box jump you always stumble and skin your shins on!
Which, you know, is: RIGHT. WHERE. YOU. NEED. TO. BE.
Progress, it’s just off the edge of the world, where the dragons are.
It’s the hurtle I have to clear with no nail biting.
I have to be in charge, not the worries, not the doubts.
But how?
Then I realized, it has been probably over a month since I have taken a picture I really loved. I just haven’t been able to locate, stumble upon or pull off any uplifting scenes that would make me excited to show off. I haven’t taken a picture that makes me think; “Wow! What an amazing world we live in.” And as the days and weeks have gone by that I haven’t been able to find those shots, I have been saying less and less to myself; “Wow! what an amazing world we live in!” And that has been leaving room for the doubts to whisper again.
To hell with that! “Been there. Done that. Have the t-shirt.”
Today’s post is for me more than anything.
This was the last really good shot I took.
“Wow! What an amazing world we live in!”
Dear Worries and Doubts:
I hear you knocking but you can’t come in.
Love,
Me
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