Back at it!
Squat:
3x air squat warming up
3x air squat with board in front of knee
5x air squat working at a more upright chest with vertical shin
(knee killing me; took a break and used a lacrosse ball to roll around my knee, quite effective.)
5x 45# bar w/board
5x 45# Bar w/ board
5x 75#
5x 85#
WoD
3 rounds 23:22
15 Turkish get ups 15# barbell
500 m row
I am not happy at myself.
I meant to get back to work yesterday but found myself still over cooked and wasted. My schedule was a bit of a mess today ( I was up to all sorts of upstanding good friend citizenry) and it would have been really easy to excuse myself of another day. But I couldn’t tolerate it and I went in late, 10:00 pm.
Going in to lift and WoD by myself is both easy and hard. I enjoy the peace and the freedom and feel very at ease, but it’s hard to push myself -I am not usually giving everything and leaving my tank drained. There is also a challenge in making yourself do these workouts alone, they can feel like an eternity and you have no feed back, no energy to draw upon. So when I do it, I am very pleased with myself.
This is where I am really disappointed, I scaled this as closely as I could with the one gym member I like to chase. She alway kicks my ass, but I can’t help to want to try and beat her. She did this same work out, only 5 rounds and the 400 m run in the same time. I intended to do five rounds too, but instead of pushing through it, I settled for the 3 rounds when I saw that I was another 10 minutes off to finishing the 5 rounds and was already at her finishing time. I got to compare myself to her in one sense, I know now what we can do in the same time frame, but I didn’t stick with the plan. When I was rowing the 500 m. I was barely keeping a 2:20/500 for each round, I know that I can row a 500 faster then that.
As I observed my performance tonight I realized that I was so pleased with myself that I was there doing what I could have easily not done, that I was cutting myself slack in my performance, and I wasn’t happy with myself over that.
I think that chasing my one gym mate means so much to me because I see what she brings to a work out. It’s a lot. But we are not so far apart that it’s still within reason that I could catch her someday, if I stay focused and learn how to do what she does with her mind and her will.
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